Friday, January 30, 2015

On jobs relationships and life

So the job search has been going spectacular, sent out a couple of applications and either rejected or no response, so will just have to keep sending them out until I can find something. I'm more than likely going to stay local for a year and gain some experience. Anyways, not much else going on in regards to jobs. Moving on...

Relationships are hard. Two years ago, I didn't really realize how difficult it can be. In the same vein, though they can also be fantastic! We recently went through a rough patch, but both of us came out stronger than where we were at before. I was challenged to find a new perspective and to do things for myself by many close friends around me. Find it I did! It wasn't easy but I learned a lot about myself and I learned a lot about relationships. In the last two years, even with this rough patch I've never been truely mad at anything in the relationship. For that, I'm thankful. That isn't to say I haven't been frustrated and had ups and downs throughout, but I really am in love as much (defintely more every day) as when we started dating. For that, I'm thankful as well. Now, I'm happier than I've ever been and very blessed and lucky to be in love with someone I consider my best friend and who challenges me to be better every day. To me this makes the relationship worthwhile. I've been reflecting on where I want to be in a couple years and where ideally this relationship will be. Truthfully, I've also learned a lot about the character of God and realize more than ever that it's where I want my relationship personally with him and with others to be grounded. Also, I learned to that in the upcoming year I have a lot of personal goals and things I want to accomplish. "To join the top 1% you have to be willing to do what the other 99% won't" - Andy Frisella

Life, in general, for the most part has been going well. I'm super excited to graduate this year! (Not as excited about having real adult responsibilities) At the end of 2014 I decided to really focus on health and in doing so also finally have my back checked out my a PM&R doctor. Slowly, my posture has started to improve and my back feels much better! It's a wonderful feeling to not have as much of a rounded shoulder and being able to stand straighter. Looking forward in the next couple months, I'm looking forward to being much stronger. I realized that being big doesn't matter to me as much as it did in the past, but instead getting (functionally) strong is what I want. Being inspired by the physiques of some body weight strength exercise focused individuals has shown me that I want to access the capabilities of functional human strength (e.g. having strength to hold my body up in the "dragon flag" <--- look it up, it's super cool and generally having the ability to use my surroundings to "play in".) Essentially it's parkour and having the functional strength needed, instead of just being able to move a heavy object from point A to point B.

I seem to have a knack though for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Trying to be a good employee and arrive a little early, on the way to work last Friday, I was rear ended by some ~20 year old white girl who proceeded to run leaving me to deal with the repair costs. Thankfully two witnesses who saw it happened stuck around and corroborated to the cop that the accident was 100% not my fault. Witnesses claimed she was texting while driving. More than likely, she was uninsured, which explains the running. I have absolutely zero sympathy for people. That being said, it looks like the swap will be pushed back a bit, but hopefully the motor will be swapped by summer and running.

Overall though, even with the accident, last Friday turned out pretty great with Esther turning 21 and with a (semi) surprise party at Squatter's to celebrate. Car is in the shop now getting damage fixed as well. Will be enjoying this super bowl weekend at a friend's apartment. Go seahawks!